We went to the dietician today to look at my daughter's diet. Something I highly recommend for those out there with allergies. From the meeting, it seems that she has a pretty good diet but is lacking calorie intake from a milk substitute like soy formula/milk. She doesn't like it and hence doesn't drink much. Last time I tried giving her a 'milky' meal (like a creamy pasta), she hardly ate anything, so I haven't been pushing it too much. Anyway. I didn't think I got the 'mummy guilts' very much but today I was feeling devastated that I hadn't been looking after her nutrition. So tears in the car as we drove home and feeling like a good cry even now. There is no-one nearby to have it with though so I'll just blog it out a bit.
It's days like this that you realise how hard it is for mums of kids with allergies (especially ones that differ) and how hard it is to get meals on the table (all mums know that difficulty), let alone ones that provide for everyone's nutrition. It's horrible and hard work and I'm thankful that there's a light at the end of the tunnel because otherwise despair might set in. I'm also glad to have God as my friend who listens to my prayers and my cries and teaches me to be content in my life, knowing that it could be a lot worse and that He has saved me through Jesus and called me to serve here, in this life, with my husband and these 2 beautiful children, whom I love and couldn't do without.
Thanks for this insight into the difficulties of catering for your kids- I feel for you! I have the mummy guilts in other areas, but I think I would handle your situation much worse. You are doing a great job, as evidenced by this blog :)
ReplyDeleteYou're a great encouragement Libby! Mum was just commenting yesterday about what a great mum you are... and no one doubts that. God is good, and he will sustain you in the hard times. We keep praying for you all.
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